This echoes an awful lot of how Ive felt about it for a few years now. Luckily ( well I say luckily) Im nearly 50 and have other interests to keep me occupied. When I was in my early teens and 20s this club meant an awful lot to me but things happen in life that put football into perspective so thankfully the clubs results dont weigh on me as heavily as they used to. I , like you, feel sorry for the youngsters who put so much emotion into the club.....I was the same.
Its just all very, meh, to me these days. I started to refuse giving the club any of my money a bit of time ago. But that's just how I feel about it and not a judgement on other people.