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Without going into too much detail, a combination of upheaval in personal life and toxic professional environment put me in a very bad place. During a doctor's visit the doctor asked if there was anything else..... And I ended up having something of a mini breakdown there and then. Immediately signed off work for two weeks and prescription for Citalopram written. Reading above your description of panic attacks, I had that occur once or twice at work. Thankfully a junior colleague who was as much a friend as someone working for me could cover for me at those points, but in an open plan office it was very difficult to maintain a resilient veneer. I think the immediate prescription was an over-reaction. Therapy alone would have been enough, a chance to go through how I was feeling rather then the drug based numbness that began. Things were really not right when I watched us beat Leicester 3-0 three years ago and felt..... Nothing. It was good to see us win, but there was no joy, no reaction.... Nothing. My housemate at the time saw how massively the medication had changed me. I stayed on the pills for 6 months. The tablets had stripped away so much that I considered me, it was existence, not living. Come the June, I stopped. Just went cold turkey. It was horrible, digestive issues as an effect of this and awful feelings of conflicting and nonsensical thoughts came on really strongly for a week. (So, more time off work.) Then, after this the migraines began. Never had them before until two weeks after I came off the pills. The warning starry 'aura' effect came first, then blindness in my left eye, then an inability to comprehend written text or talk. Frankly, I thought I was having a stroke. Bloody terrifying. Thankfully, after a night's sleep I would feel more tired then usual and mentally drained but otherwise normal. These would just happen spontaneously at first, then only after exercise. Thankfully, it's been 12 months since i've had one... Hopefully whatever caused that has now resolved itself. Nothing comes close to the feeling of helplessness when you are driving along and notice the 'stars' beginning. After about a month of ditching the drugs, I did start to 'feel' again. Never again do I want to go through something like those 6 months, I personally needed a chance to vent, not have my emotions and by extension, my sense of self removed.

The problem with mental health is that it requires a more bespoke approach then just a prescription. You need the therapy side of things for that to happen, that's where the bottleneck in resources occurs. I've had my own experience with this kind of thing....... Crab Lungs, going cold turkey from Citalopram. Nasty. I detest that drug.

Ings on the bench.

So many empty seats at Brighton for a derby game.

How many times do they need to appoint him as such?

Waiting for mentions of stopped clocks being right twice a day. A mixture of poor coaching and management has masked the ability of many of our signings over the last 3 years. That's not to say they are all redeemable (Elyounoussi)

No. His attitude and past comments would only destabilise what little unity Ralph has managed to build.

From memory (reading one of Clough's biographies,) they had a conversation along the lines of: BC: "Justin, where do you go to get Bread?" JF: "Bakers, boss." BC: "Right, and if you wanted some bacon........" JF: "Butchers, I guess....." BC: "Right, so why the f**k do you keep going to that bloody p**fs bar?" To say he was from a different time would be an understatement.

Exactly. When 'coming out' stops being a thing, and the reaction is, 'so what?' then progress will have truly been made. It's extremely heartening to see that with the children I work with, sexuality is becoming less and less important as an issue, it's simply another variation in people like hair colour.

Has the potential to not just be a random cameo. And it still appears that she is 'Seven,' not Annika.

Frankly, I would get both Walker-Peters and Jan off, Bednarek and Romeu on, shift JWP back to RB.

Much better, great strike.

The conditions reminding me of Stoke away back in Dec 2012.

Ridiculous.

Nervous about our back four, I can see Jay Rod enjoying being up against Vestergaard.

I have recollections of Liptak scoring a free kick v Watford. Edt: Nope, that was Saeijs. For that reason, Licka.

Highly irritating. Pleased to see us playing so well and capable of such high quality football. I'm focusing on that as my parting shot from the game... otherwise it would be maddening.

What a beautiful, beautiful goal.

We are attacking at will. This is great to watch..... Shame we are, well, us.

Excellent phone auto correct there.

Two sides taking the competition absolutely seriously. Could/Should be a cracker.

Some of the players mentioned. Genuinely dis-likable or simply pragmatic?

Dennis Wise was one of these. Then he briefly played for us. You sometimes need a bit of dis-likable to complete a team. Don't take Dennis Wise as the best example....... Give me a successful team of cvnts over a group of total submissives any day.

I applaud you eelpie. Brilliantly put.

Not a single appearance for Tranmere while loaned to them earlier this season. Bit of an odd one. 21, so would be a latter bloomer if at all.